2008年2月27日 星期三

was talking to my piano teacher yesterday about portfolios and stuff. how hard is it to build up a good portfolio? Very hard. especially if you do not have many opportunities to start with.

i'm not complaining, but sometimes i feel that, schs say they provide many opportunities for certain things. but the problem is that the target group they provide it for is very small.

for example. they ask people to join the organising team of a certain event. and they will say it's a good experience to hone your leadership skills. but the thing is. the people they choose had been leaders before. and those who did not have an opportunity to lead will never get a chance to lead. it's really a vicious cycle. those who have had many opportunities will continue to get more opportunities. and those who missed an opportunity will probably never get an opportunity ever again no matter how hard they try.

so that means people who are able to have a good portfolio will have an excellent one. and people who arent able to build up a good portfolio, might not even have a portfolio that is worth looking through..

maybe i should give up the chance of trying to lead and be a follower forever...

life is full of vicious cycles..

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晚上10:56

everything is unexpected.

and everything is just in a vicious cycle of its own.

twisted my ankle when i was going down the stairs. i just suddenly slipped and fell. no more dance until my ankle recovers. what a sad life. i missed o sch last week. and i have to miss it again this week. everything always happens when i have planned everything out.

i should have been more careful. but how would i have known that it would happen? it's not my fault that it happened, but how can you scold me even when i injured myself? it's not what i wanted. you rushed me, and that was what happened. now you blame me for injuring myself. nice one.

ILP presentation tomorrow. i'm not confident at all. my presentation skills are not good. sorry to my group members if i dragged you down. it always happens. no matter what, i will try my best.

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晚上9:36

2008年2月26日 星期二

argh.

the new timetable sucks. now mondays are not nice anymore. i end at 330! omg.. so late. and only 30 minutes break before choir! oh man. how to survive.

pw starting. means i have more work to do. and i don't know whether i should take piano prac exam or not. i always can't decide. haiz.

anyways. mr lee told 6b today that our class the max no. of correct questions for mcq is 7. haha wow. definitely not me. cus i only did five. i depend all on my structured now! RAH.

thursday's OP. no movie again. haiz. it's my only free time and they have to take it away. right smack in the middle of afternoon somemore. seriously, i don't mind having it on saturday. oh wells.

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晚上8:24

2008年2月25日 星期一

POP!

haha it was so fun.

had chemistry test in the morning. and guess what. first time in my life i cant finish a chemistry paper. zomg. and i left 10 marks blank! worst thing that happened to me today. haiz. whatever

anyways, orientation games were fun! haha. and 6B met our new classmate, Hiroshi.

ok fast forward to POP! had 2007 fac dance showcase! haha i seriously love apollo's one. it's nice. artemis not bad too! then it was fac dance competition! i gave my all.. haha cus it's dance! was super high la. by the time the dance finish, my voice was hoarse liao. but it's super fun! haha artemisians dancing together.. I LOVE THE FAC DANCE CAN! it's nice..

and after that was songs and mass dance!

realised it was the last time the 34th students' council are leading us in both events. haiz. they are a good bunch of councillors..

yay! orientation was fun! although it ended today. but still.. i will never forget.. og and ct.. haha.. they are a great bunch of people..

anyways today was the first day of wearing hc uniform. i'm happy to say that i look normal. haha. and no more wearing of ny uniform. i kinda miss it actually.. haha.. one day i will wear it again.. HAHA

thanks xianyou for the tags! and yes dance totally rocks my life! i can't imagine having to live with 1hour of dance a week. haha.

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晚上10:03

2008年2月23日 星期六

this post is worthless. it's not worthed it to write a post just for some anonymous guy. BUT STILL.. I HAVE TO SAY SOMETHING.

TO THE ANONYMOUS PERSON WHO TAGGED MY BLOG. THANKS FOR SAYING I DON'T THINK BEFORE I WRITE ANYTHING.. THANKS ALOT.

you totally ruined my day.

WHERE IN THE WORLD DID YOU SEE IN MY POST THAT ATHENA DRAMAFESTE PLAY IS SUPER GOOD? WHERE IN THE WORLD DID YOU SEE IN MY POST THAT I SAID THAT ATHENA DRAMAFESTE PLAY IS GOOD IN THE FIRST PLACE?

i think it's you who cant differentiate things. QUOTE AND PLAY ARE TWO DIFFERENT THINGS. next time, check the dictionary before you type anything.

once again i shall say..

I LIKE THE QUOTE, NOT THE PLAY.

sorry to all athenians if i offended you. the play just didnt catch my eye.

seriously, i would not even have bothered to blog if i didnt think. i would not even blog about dramafeste.

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晚上10:24

"The only thing stranger than fiction is life itself."

as quoted from athena dramafeste.

not that i don't like artemis dramafeste, in fact i love it. but just because the quote is simply beautiful.

i can never imagine if my life was fiction. then i would be under the control of a certain author. my feelings, my actions, everything.

anyways, i seriously think my studies abit screwed up. so screwed that i am desperate for tuition. and i will be having it every sunday. not a good day to have tuition, but what can i do. weekdays are out for me, and i have dance on saturday.

i can't have the best of both worlds, can i? doing well for both studies and other stuff. i will have to sacrifice either of them. but it's hard to let go. really hard to let go. especially when both are my life..

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下午4:47

2008年2月21日 星期四

what you think should be, might not be the case, especially when you do not know the full picture.

the day started with something rather bad. i shall not talk about it. anyways, i realise i say the wrong things most of the the time. maybe i should just stop talking all together..

realised that i have been in slacking mode ever since school started. i should really get down to serious work now. haven't been doing tutorials and stuff.. and i feel rather bad about it. now that i'm trying to find a tuition teacher, i should start taking studying seriously. i'm aiming for a h3. so i cant afford to do badly for everything..

ilp today was rather entertaining. with kaiming's flash masterpiece. i must say it's a rather good job. i wont be able to do it, if it was me. and after that, chai and chris tried to copy it, but ended up making so many retarded mistakes that we had a really good laugh at it. and what was i doing? nothing. not that i want to say. but i know i have something to do, not at that time. i'm the most not artistic person i think. can't draw, hopeless in flash.

had kind of a little quarrel with my dad just now. sometimes i feel that he just cant understand me. why must i tell them everything in detail? it's not like they will know. and i will have to take time to explain to them. which i do not like. haiz. and he lectured me throught out the journey on the car.

oh whatever..

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晚上8:31

2008年2月20日 星期三

went home with shiqi today.. had quite a meaningful talk. i was thinking. did i make the correct choice to choose choir over dance? and what if i am in dance, would i be making a wrong choice then? listening to shiqi talking about MAD really makes me think that i'm dance-deprived. i wouldn't be happy if i only have one of both. say i am greedy. but it's my passion..

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晚上7:14

2008年2月19日 星期二

JAE posting out today.

was so happy that irene could stay. but then again, many others couldn't. just hope they can have a successful appeal. i thought that if you get 7 points and you are not in first intake, you cannot get in. but strangely, cher-e managed to get posted to hc with 7 points. and he's not in the 1st intake. surprising.

the 2nd intake will come in tomorrow. i hope the class allocation will be good. i hope 6b can stay together. i hope they wont split us up. who tell them to let 6b be a hybrid class. RAH. i'm so gonna protest if we are split up.

finally went for fac dance session. FINALLY. haven't been going for ages. fac dance comp is on monday. hopefully i can participate. it's so fun doing fac dance with 6b. the zihigh group of people. and we were so enthu. half of the class turned up i think. yay.

bought my uniform today. my mum said that my skirt is too short. it's not. seriously. it would be ugly if it was any longer. i dont wanna wear that uniform. after all the comments made by 6b guys on people changing into hc uniform. rah. mean people.

was suppose to film for ilp today. but in the end decided to change plan. and do animation. so donuts were bought for eating and solely eating. haha. everyone was happy though. that leaves me thinking. i'm only in charged of video. so now if there is no video, what am i supposed to do? i seriously think that i'm the most useless person in the group. the person that's the most un-intellectual, the least artistic, one who is a ppt, flash, java idiot.. not that i want to, but i'm just an average girl that does not have any significance in anything. what's more, i feel bad not doing anything. it's like i'm there to leech the marks.. something i do not like. i want to play a part..

conclusion. i'm probably someone that people forgets as time passes..

i want to shoot myself now. for leaving my file in school...

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晚上7:39

2008年2月18日 星期一

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIWEN
HAPPY BIRTHDAY XINMEI
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINA
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHANGMIN

as you can see.. alot of people chose to be born on this day.

anyways..

life hasn't been very nice for me. maybe that explains the mood swings i'm having now. but i'm very thankful for 6B and senior class. they always manage to brighten my day.

anyways, whats up today? as everybody knows, post orientation party is on 25 feb.. which is also fac dance comp day. and i'm suppose to have a rehearsal on that day with SCO. how nice is that. i'm stuck in the middle. i want to go for orientation, but i want to perform too. it's actually all decided. but i'm feeling very sad. cus i will be missing part of the orientation. and i really really hope that fac dance comp is not at night. cus i wanna dance the fac dance.. i really really want to.

yup basically it's this.

the feeling that i had last year is coming back again. i think it has. don't mind me if i suddenly changed. it's normal.

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晚上8:28

2008年2月16日 星期六

JTS today! yay had lots of fun..

let's see.. my table had longyi, jack, chenyang, wenjing, eddie, farrica, jiahan, ruiwen, me, and gerald.. i think our table ate the most.. jack keeps saying i eat a lot.. NO I DON'T! anyways kaiming keep coming to our table to disturb. haha. but i had so much fun. and we are all amused at how jack eats. haha. longyi too! he eats a lot.

poor chai and gao cant go for jts.. oh man, it would be so much more fun if they went! haha. anyways we stayed at the restaurant until they chased us out. then we took pictures! and jack keep hitting my head with a monkey head.. :( evil person.

after that, they guys decided to go jec to play LAN. most of the people who stayed quite far left. and the only girls left were like me, irene and minx.. but some of us wearing half or full sch uniform so we cant go in. and these group of us stoned outside kbox, before deciding to go home.

i realised how stupid zhiwei can be today.. haha..

anyways, we had a new physics lecturer today! she's so amusing. haha.. the way she talks.. can make the whole lecture theatre burst into laughter. but she's definitely better than someone.. who got me quite frustrated during tutorial today.. shall not talk about it.

ilp meeting tml! going chai's hse! haha and then O SCH! yay.. i miss dance.. JAE results coming out.. then it will be O2! i wonder if there are any new people transfering into 6B...

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凌晨12:06

2008年2月14日 星期四

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY!

haha i don't have a date, but who cares. i'm enjoying singlehood. HAHA.

yay so today went to school! and got lot's of presents from many people! thanks to all those who gave me stuff! guanyu, elson, chai, sheena, yenngee, shiqi, xinxi, ruiwen, jiahan, xinyi senior, zenghao, yuyue, tianning, jacqueline, AND MY VERY NICE ANGEL ZHIWEI, AND MY VERY NICE MORTAL, ALSO ZHIWEI!

i spent the whole night yesterday doing vday gifts, but i still didn't finish. in the end i didn't give to a lot of people: OG9, yingting, gloria, choir people... SORRY!

yay so it's a rather happy day today! GP was very entertaining.. haha.. and chem was fun! poor jiahan had to redo his solution three times..

JTS tomorrow! i'm looking forward to it. haha. for one fact that it's going to be fun! and another is that i don't need to worry too much about going home cus it's at SCIENCE CENTRE! haha..

oh ya. THANKS to evelyn for accompanying me in school today while i do my econs essay.. met her friend gibson. haha he's a nice guy!

yay now i have a lot of food to eat. means i'm going to gain weight.. HAHA..

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晚上8:12

2008年2月7日 星期四

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

okay.. i'm late by 27 minutes? who cares..

anyways today's cny celebration was fun! street market.. haha.. we didn sell all the brownies.. BUT we made a profit can!

then there was lao yu sheng... it became throw yu sheng.. haiz.. so there were not much edible yu sheng left for us to eat.. and poor minx.. she got zham by Jack.. and then by Kaiming.. so mean lor! they all..

anyways after that was mass dance, and i forgot alot of the steps.. haha.. and then went back to nanyang.. BUT. everybody left already! we only saw mr chia.. so we stoned outside audi before meeting the guys at ny bus stop.. suppose to go yishun to bowl.. in the end? we went fong's house to play mahjong! haha.. nevermind. still very fun.. i won one game okay! even though i was a beginner...

after that went home and then to grandma's hse for reunion dinner! after the dinner i was so tired until i fell asleep and my parents had to wake me up to go home..

yay soon i will be collecting angbaos!!!!!

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凌晨12:26

2008年2月3日 星期日

HAPPY KYUHYUN DAY!!

okay anyways, today went eileen's house to do banner and the board. we finished it! YAY!!! we are efficient people.. i realised i should not attempt to draw next time. my drawing sucks like don't know what..

i shall focus more about yesterday!

yesterday went to nlb to do ilp.. then i went for dance! daniel used Boa's Love is What You Can't See! omg!!! but i want SPARK.. why did i have to miss it.. RAH.. anyways.. Si Jin went o sch yesterday as well. haha. i love O Sch now!! anyways, yesterday's dance was cool.. Lockin', BBoy, Hip Hop and House is the combi.. so cool! i don't want to miss dance now.. haha..

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下午6:50