emotional rhapsody~

2009-04-26T22:23:00.002+08:00

i dont think i can maintain two blogs. i might just as well change to lj.

http://dreamrhapsody.livejournal.com

if anybody wants to visit. but i highly doubt so anyway.

2009-04-13T22:39:00.003+08:00

i kind of don't know what to do with my life anymore.

block test results are so below my expectations that i don't think i can improve by bt2. ABBDU. what lousy grades. and piano exam is worse. fail. not that i never faced it before. but i did practise alot and put in my best. everything just does not come out the way i want it to.

wow others can have such good results, i'm always the one falling short of expectations and ending up unhappy.

2009-04-09T20:39:00.002+08:00

ok today has been full of ups and downs. more of the downs maybe. the only good thing is pw. chem was such a disappointment. i think it really shook me awake and reminded me that i should not be thinking about irrelevant things.

2009-03-10T21:34:00.001+08:00

blocks starts tomorrow. which means i'm going to do very badly.

GPGPGPGPGP i will just aim to pass. hee. what can i do! for a person who fails gp like almost always!

econs depend on whether i have the writing flair.

physics? highly impossible to score, but shall try to mug as much as i can. super drained from mugging physics the whole day alr.

chem and maths after hols so i shall just put on hold.

and j1s are having cross country tml. lol. a good way to chase them out of the school while we j2s have our tests.

2009-03-01T00:21:00.004+08:00

JTS today! okay it's quite sian at the start. but towards the end it was quite fun. oh and i hit 4 balls in for pool today! yay. and ryan's present for me is super cute haha. it's this speaker thing that looks like a handphone holder.

it's a panda!

okay random. anyways morning was h3 test which i dunno whether i will do well cus you are just not sure about everything. then choir. i guess we did okay? i'm not sure. i'm very concerned about choir right now. juniors jiayou pls!

yup shaltos started on project heartbeadz! i hope it succeeds :D

ok i will post photos next time? haha if i feel like that is. cus right now i dunno whether i should change back to lj.

2009-02-19T22:27:00.002+08:00

these few days i feel that that everything is crashing down and i can't breathe. it's just three more weeks to blocks, and i find that i can't even catch up with the current school work, let alone revise for blocks. everything is so stressful that i don't even feel like doing anything. and once that happens, time becomes more limited. it's all a vicious cycle and i don't know how to stop it. i just wish that one day i would have 48 hours so that i have ample time to do whatever i want without rushing.

and.

i want letters. it's kind of the only escape.

2009-02-15T14:13:00.002+08:00

campfire on friday was a blast. despite the few screwups i made during fac dance showcase. haha. ok la i only dropped my cap and turned wrongly that's all. the facdance showcase was a success. we were damn high can. and congrats to junior class for representing artemis for class item. all i can say, 6B got talent! alot alot of talent.

haha and i love 08s6b! junior class too. at least i think we were one of the classes that came together with juniors to sing hwachong songs. haha. and then after that, mass dance, then rushed of to kap for supper. koped the place outside cold storage. haha. it was a 4 generation gathering can. 1 grandsenior from 06, 4 from 07, half of us from 08 and all from 09.

so, after these two weeks, finally can get down to studying. real actual studying and i should stop procrastinating.

ok anyways one last thing. I LOVE SHALTOS!

SADDED

2009-02-01T18:36:00.002+08:00

kor is leaving for shanghai tonight. :( for half a year... no more talking to him.. no more asking him questions.. it's super fast la. a few weeks ago i didn think that today will come so fast, until a few days ago. it doesn even seem like a few weeks later.

then now i wont see him until june.

i hope this half a year passes very fast. because it seems quite long to me now...

2009-01-26T14:09:00.003+08:00

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!

i just realised i haven't blogged in ages. so, i suppose i shall blog about what happened the past few days.

friday.
CNY celebration. so i suppose choir item wasn't that bad. at least there are aunties clapping with us! and street market was a success! we earned like a total of $132. through selling chin chow and konnyaku jelly. :D so after that was lao yu sheng! hiroshi got zham-ed by the yusheng. then while taking class photo, clement got zham-ed too. cus of hiroshi. haha. i think our area was the dirtiest la. most of the yusheng just dropped onto the floor. then in the end we were picking up yusheng from the ground instead of eating it. haha. so after the celebration, went to suntec. ate at fish & co. they have a super good way of celebrating birthdays, and kahwee and xiangjing got to experience it! the birthday people had to stand on a tall chair holding a sparkler while the whole restaurant celebrates, then the service crew will hold the cake far away and the birthday person has to try to blow out the candles. haha. super cool. after that, we went to walk around. toys r us. we played with like a super lot of toys. and found a lot of pink version toys. like pink monopoly, game of life, jenga etc. then we found this hippo and named it hirofat. lol... after that most of us went to a mini book sale. and spent a super long time there. i bought a book! by recommendation of lingyong. and then stoned at starbucks, where we witnessed elson's unglam moments. hahhaha. then all of us left.

saturday.
amore. last lesson before magdalene left. :( she thought elevator and is going to continue next lesson. :(:( the choreo is super nice... so took photos, and gave her our gift. she super gandong! :) i'm going to miss her.... oh! and i bought a chio wallet!!!!! although it's not white. but i love it. so after amore me and regina went jp SHOPPING! the both of us were mad la haha. and we spent a lot of money :( have to save up again..

sunday.
spent the whole day cleaning up the house and then went to grandma's house for reunion dinner! as usual steamboat! with lots of nice food. but before that, lao yu sheng! haha the second yu sheng. nothing much, just that plenty of eating hahaha.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR AGAIN!

2009-01-16T23:11:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIJUAN!

you are EIGHTEEN now. :D

2009-01-12T22:31:00.002+08:00

first day of school. super tiring. but i'm happy to see my friends!!!

first 2 hours was chem tutorial. and i realised i did my holiday homework but not the tutorial. and mr lee wanted to go through the tutorial. ): math lecture was okay. vectors.. i forgot everything already. then 2 hours break.

i conclude. having a 2 hour recess is BAD. you have too much time to spare, and it's not the studying season yet. so the more you stone the more tired you get and the more crazy you get. right ruiwen?

physics lecture was o.o we were sitting right infront can. THE FIRST ROW IN FRONT OF THE TEACHER. then the movement of the waves were so hypnotic i almost fell asleep la.

then gp. fun! miss claire was super funny. but i also quite scared of her cus she seemed very strict. talking of which, i havent started on my homework which is supposed to be handed in tml. and there is a physics test tomorrow and i havent studied for it yet. WIN.

choir was fun today. i hope it stays like that.

2009-01-04T23:47:00.003+08:00

great. this is how i spend my new year. chionging homework. and i haven't finish yet!

let's see what i've left.

issues and ideas ex 12, 14, 15, 16
fact to fiction (i don't even know if need to do or not)
chem (15 questions)
math (7 chapters)
physics (EVERYTHING)

wow that's like everything already. minus econs. SIAN. i hate homework.

anyways, this year is going to be a real busy year. syf, h3, As. siao bullet train sia. last year already fast enough liao. AND im not going to recap about last year. IM NOT. damn lazy to do it. and abit to late since it's like 4 JAN alr. and i just hope i dont break down this year cus this year is a damn important year and if i screw up it's the end. so ya. i dont know why im still up i should be sleeping already. to set my body clock right so that it wont be so horrible when i start school a week later.

2008-12-29T22:54:00.003+08:00

OKAY i haven't been here for like almost half a month.

anyways, christmas is just over. so here's how i spent the few days of christmas.

christmas eve, when to watch the seniors carol. oh man how i wish i would be able to carol next year. it's such a nice experience. then went nyny to eat with altos + shilbe! camwhored like mad. haha but i have a fun time. thanks adeline for the present! after that went to walk along orchard. i swear im never going there on christmas eve again. and i hate the sprays. totally hate them. and i hate those who any how spray. and i also don't like the one way roads, and squeezy paths. rah.

anyways, christmas day at uncle's house! just the plain old gathering, but with nice christmas food! hehe, turkey and mashed potatoes. nothing much. just eating and watching old movies like 英雄.

boxing day! went to watch twilight with yen, sheena and jing. haha not very high expectations so the movie was okay. then went to walk and stuff, before heading to zijie's house for 6b christmas party. again, plain old class gathering, with watching tv.. 小娘惹! and food and mahjong and many many other things. haha. okay basically that's about all.

at chalet now! for around 5 days.

2008-12-15T23:01:00.002+08:00

yay im back in singapore! and joelynn's going japan tml. LOL. japan is a blast man. super fun. disneyland and universal studios. MAD.

bought super a lot of things also.. hehe. but still not enough time to shop so sian.. i still can buy alot more things de.

anyways. HAPPY BIRHDAY JUNSU. lol.

2008-12-08T22:55:00.000+08:00

off to japan tomorrow.. (:

will be back on the 15th..

2008-12-04T22:17:00.000+08:00

i wonder.

2008-12-01T22:16:00.002+08:00

SAY BYE BYE TO BRACES. okay the upper ones at least. and say hello to retainers a few days later.

i wasted today away again. went for dental, then decided to search for organizers. but all very expensive leh! sian want to buy also cannot. no money. ):

japan next week! yay.. i should concentrate on my homework this week since got nothing on.

2008-11-25T19:58:00.002+08:00

today is so unproductive.. tried doing maths the whole afternoon and ended up doing only one chapter. sian. and i was sweating super alot la. don't know what's with the heat..

and i need to save money. spent alot these few weeks. my savings from increase, now falling back to the orginal amount i have. quite sad. means what i did not save anything although i tried to.. cannot anyhow go shopping already! means cannot anyhow go out already!

thursday chalet. no comments.

2008-11-24T21:04:00.002+08:00

went out with altos today! to ikea to buy shhhhh.... hahahah. rah yangzi cant come. haiz. anyways. i think we are super creative! so after buying stuff, went to the cafeteria to eat and talk. haha. i love altos. they are a fun bunch of people.

home alone now. i don't like it. everywhere's so quiet.. ):

2008-11-19T21:26:00.001+08:00

i love love love love love choir!

2008-11-17T21:19:00.002+08:00

i think i'm super lag in blogging. haha. cus now then i decided to talk about class chalet.

anyways, thanks to ruiwen, a few of us met at 930 in the morning on thursday. and i was a bit late. CUS I LIVE IN THE WEST THANKYOU. lol. then i realised the shops weren't open yet. so the group of us decided to walk to downtown east and check out the new extension. the shops there weren't open yet too. so we just walk here walk there. when we finally decided where to eat lunch, we waited outside and started playing cards. CHEAT! haha. but the security guard said no. ): so we had to stone.. oh ya before that we went arcade and clement, eileen, ruiwen and moxiang played daytona. ruiwen got second. 0.0 hahaha.

okay fast forward. check in was super -.- i'm so angry and i don't want to talk about it. it made me have a bad impression on downtown east. but anyway we checked in, and started checking out the rooms. we had linking rooms! yay. and it's the first floor so we don't need to climb stairs. then it was russian poker time. i losed like don't know how badly. so we just stoned around in the chalet and wait for people to come. then we went to buy bbq food.

haha had to walk all the way to the extension. quite far but okay. me and ruiwen kept worrying there's not enough food. the guanyu was like. "just buy anything you want". haha. then we bought ~~liquor~~. cus mr lee doesn't want to help us buy. so we bought a whole lot of stuff.

bbq! thanks to moxiang and chris for starting the first fire. and irene is pro. for starting the second one with only two fire starters. haha. we kept shifting the wire mesh between the two fires, whichever is hotter. lol. mr lee came! and bought tidbits and ice cream (which was too much) for us! yay. and we had so much difficulty opening the liquor. anyways during the barbeque a group of us went to watch I SURVIVED A JAPANESE GAMESHOW! haha. clement super enthu la. and it was so funny.

oh ya. thanks to guanyu and elson for their first anniversary gift! CLASS ANNIVERSARY I MEAN. hahaha. thanks for the photo, frame, and messages! you guys are really nice!

okay so after the bbq, went to the mall to eat fondue. it's super cheap la! and i like banana with chocolate. hahaha. then rent movies to watch.

so went back, they wanted to watch horror first, so i stayed in the other room to play mahjong. then i dozed off watching the prestige. but, it was a nice show. after that i think we went to the beach to walk or sth. cus hiroshi came and wanted to eat so had to go macs. but then it started drizzling... and we had to go back.

when we went back, we watch mr bean's holiday. and many people fell asleep. haha me included. i woke up at the end of the movie. then a few of us decided to play blackjack. and hiroshi lost 9 dollars. lol.

well. a successful class chalet with a successful bbq! next year we shall go overseas! hahaha. i totally love my class.

2008-11-11T18:35:00.002+08:00

okay so i finished watching 籃球火 and gokusen 3. next up will be maou and 霹靂MIT. and i'm still in the midst of finding other shows to watch. recommendations anyone?

class chalet is like two days later. haha rw was saying how lag she was that she just realised it's this week. but yay the attendance is like so good. and im looking forward to bbq so i hope it does not rain if not i will be so sad. and me and rw are so lucky that self prac is not on friday but on saturday. yay.

and i'm waiting for my mum to finish 書劍恩仇錄 so that i can read it because i have no books to read now. or maybe i should start on my holiday homework. hmm.

2008-11-05T23:39:00.002+08:00

NO MORE PW NO MORE OP NO MORE WR. yayers. op was quite okay, although i kept worrying that i thought too fast and q&a was quite scary but i passed it anyway. so no more scary stuff now!

and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHEENA! although there's twenty minutes left. so after op waited hours for yenngee then when macritchie to continue waiting for juan. after that rushed to marina square yuki yaki! poor jing cannot come. next time we will go again! ate a whole lot of stuff and had fun with the ice cream thing. haha. the pro-est is xinmei la. got so much strength. the ice cream very nice la. and we stayed until we were the only ones left in the restaurant. oops. haha. and now im so poor and in debt that i have to save up and not go out although that is not possible.

anyways, fac outing on friday! class time again! haha yay. couldn go and eat with them after op today cus at first they decided to go lot1 and it was quite far from school. but it's okay!

okay that's all for today...

2008-11-04T20:36:00.003+08:00

OP tomorrow. afternoon somemore. i just hope that i don't keep tripping in my words because i have to look at the assessors. if i screw up then all my preparation will just go to waste and i can just go jump off a building.

anyways. goodluck to 6B! and by the way did i say we are going to promote as a class? yay!

then i can forget all about op and it will be another year before i bear to delete all my pw files. and it will be yuki yaki at night! with jing, juan, sheena, yen, and xinmei! and after that i can be more sick then ever before i recover for fac outing. i hope elson and chai wins fac queen and king (notice the order thankyou. haha). then our class will be the artemis royalty family. okay im talking crap.

and after that, class chalet! i hope alot of people go so each person can pay less. it's $308 for goodness sake not including barbeque food yet. and chai says she can bring a frisbee and we all can play frisbee on the beach.

and then i can settle down and start mugging holiday homework which piles up to alot. maybe i should like go mug with rw or sth. hahaha.

anyways, i found a lot more shows to watch! and alot more shows to look forward to. yay! and i just watched nobody rainstone remix. it's super nice la! i think nicer than orginal version. but if they have their hair tied up like the ballad version intro i think it will be nicer!

2008-10-29T22:15:00.002+08:00

okay the holidays are here! well, not exactly so until op's finished. and i hope all our preparation won't go to waste. if not i will be really sad.

yesterday's hcidol was worth going to. i think iype deserves to win. and sherry is very good. of course eve too! and iype's and eve's duet was so cute, it does not matter that iype forgot his lyrics cus he remembered the rap part.

today was quite uneventful, just that you see a whole lot of people crowding the college reception cus of h3.

and rudylee was telling me i need to work on my gp. not like i don't know that already. but it's going to be hard work. and i was telling rw previously that sooner or later i will have tuition for all subjects. which is highly possible except for mathematics maybe.

2008-10-26T21:38:00.003+08:00

i finished new moon today. need to buy the third book - eclipse. but i just dont understand why my mum is so against me buying books. buying books only for rich people meh? everything have to go library to borrow. i want to collect that series also cannot meh.

but anyways. went for magdalene's class yesterday again! i missed her style so much. her style is those kind not easy to find elsewhere one lor. yay i love mag! and i love going for classes with regina. and chiewlin! and mag says next time we go for lessons together. haha.

anyways, scream was quite disappointing although many people say it was good. the reason is they keep delaying the trail. ours was at 8 plus. then they delay 40 minutes. then when we went they say we have to go back at 10 plus. which is too late for most of us so we had to forgo it in the end. rah. went to school for nothing. and OKAY RUIWEN YES I AM SCARED... lol. so stop laughing at me. haha.

yay looking forward to class outing on thursday! night safari! 6B like suddenly so enthu keep having class outings. haha. but it's okay! i like it!

anyways. woke up today with a stiff neck. super bu shuang.

2008-10-19T22:44:00.003+08:00

great. i finished twilight. now i have to book to read. need to go and buy another one. apparently the story about vampires attracted me so much i finished the last one-third of the book today. and seeing that im a rather slow reader, it's alot. next book: new moon. the preview already made me looking forward to reading that book. it's been quite a long time since i got engrossed in a book ever since the da vinci code times.

yesterday had class outing. one of the more successful ones i suppose. around half of the class went. the steamboat was really nice. and it's cheap. haha. well, at least it kind of made me take the issue of results of my mind for awhile. anyways, will upload the pictures soon.

friday. a good and bad day i supposed. class outing at eileen's house before gp. was playing monopoly while some others were watching the swan princess. elson was winning. unbelievable. haha. then pizza came! after which a few of the guys plus chai played 終極密碼. quite amusing to see them perform the forfeits. like touching eileen's brother's hair, pulling ruiwen's hair, balancing a pizza box and walking all the way to the front door and say pizza delivery. haha. well, the day wasn't very good after that. i don't know how long i cried that night. and it seems that my results for physics and economics will continue to be not up to my expectations.

and i just realised avenueQ is one day before OP and my brother still wants to bring me for supper with his friends after that. just hope i dont die on the day of OP.

now i just want to do the things i want but it seems that there are somethings that wont allow me to. like my parents who keeps bugging me to pack my room and flaring up when i haven't even said anything. and they keep saying that i keep relying on them when they never helped me do things and such. somehow i don't think they know how i feel.

2008-10-16T19:27:00.002+08:00

okay my 200th post. on a quite depressing day.

and i havent blogged in the longest time. so i shall talk about the past week

FOS. that's when i got my first sports medal. HAHA. played frisbee and 6B got second! we got first in volleyball. i think our class contributed quite a lot of points to artemis haha. yay and good job to everyone who played.

SABBATICALS. new school hip hop! guess what. it's justis again. and he taught us a lot of stuff. popping, waving, locking and his routines are super cool. didn't know his style was lyrical hip hop. had a lot of fun can. and smu is like so nice. so sad next year no more sabbats. i wanted to try ballroom. haha

then grad day and open house. open house was fun! as a tour guide and as a chorister. haha.

then it was returning of results. chem was okay. gp was sad. math was quite depressing. strangely, i felt more depressed today when getting back math then when i got back gp compre. haha ruiwen knows how i feel. and frisbee tomorrow! yay. now we have so much free time in school that we don't know how to spend it. like a group of us played monopoly after school today. and i was totally dominating like three quarter of the board when i had to die in clement's properties. and we played monopoly for like 2 plus hours can. haha.

and i realise my speed of reading a book is super slow. it's been one week and i haven't finish twilight yet. what a failure i am.

tomorrow is gp paper 1 results. sure die. just hope i pass..

2008-10-02T21:42:00.002+08:00

finally end of promos. what a stressful period. and to think i end it with a bad paper. rah. but at least i managed to survive promos.

went to watch mamma mia with rw and irene today. i must say the movie is quite funny. but of course im concentrating on the songs. haha. i kind of miss singing mamma mia and dancing queen. and i miss choir. at least we are having choir on saturday!

2008-09-23T22:12:00.002+08:00

everything starts tomorrow. and i hope i don't screw this period up. i think i worked rather hard for this promos can. i'm even studying for gp and i can't believe it.

and after today's chem consult i think my organic chem has hope. which is good. because that means my chem has hope. so it's left with econs and physics. after chem i'm going to mug physics like mad.

okay. jiayou everyone!

2008-09-21T22:23:00.003+08:00

OMG one whole afternoon and i have only reached reaction kinetics. and i still have lots more to go. RAH.

i still need to go through:
reaction kinetics
chemical equilibrium
intro to organic
alkanes
alkenes
arenes
halogen compounds

FIGHTING!

2008-09-21T17:59:00.002+08:00

OKAY im here to blog again if not people complain. haha

anyways. no more official school day! cus promos are here. ): intensive mugging starts now if all the mugging i did before hasn't been intensive enough. my aim! h3.

soon bukit batok macdonalds will be my camping ground after every paper. haha. and consult for the next two days. i think it's not enough. the school should give us more consult days. rah.

okay mugging chem.. bye for now.

2008-09-13T23:29:00.003+08:00

okay. since ruiwen tells me to blog about how i hated the rain for a second time i shall talk about it. ruiwen aren't you honoured! hahaha.

anyway, it went like this. yesterday morning before assembly it was raining. then it stopped. at first we thought no flag raising, but they decided to have it. so halfway through the flag raising, it started raining again. lol. but that's not the main point. during pw, it started raining super heavily again. then when we were walking along the corridors, the rain kept splashing in. that's why i hated rain for the second time. haha.

anyway, got a new phone today! samsung F400. haha i think it's super stylish.

tomorrow's 中秋節! yay. and i need to study organic chem

2008-09-08T22:03:00.002+08:00

i love rain alot. i love the water, the weather. but not at this point of time when everything bad seems to just hit you at the same time. when everywhere is just so cold you don't feel like moving. when i think i cannot make it for promos. when i feel that there's too much to revise. and when i feel helpless looking at practice questions at time. when i feel bad for not doing anything the whole day, when i feel frustrated that i did not feel like doing anything. when everything goes wrong and i realised how dependent i am on lecture notes and how stupid i am when i face all subjects. when i'm so tired but i can't fall asleep for goodness knows what. when i feel that all i have been doing this year was to rush through topics and not learn them properly at all. when i don't even want to be here.

i can't wait for promos to be over. all maybe should i say, i don't even want promos at all.

2008-08-26T22:19:00.002+08:00

it's week 10.. a few more weeks to promos. somehow, the motivation to mug hasnt found me yet. and i'm still sitting and waiting for it to come.

somehow, i feel empty without choir. it's like there's something missing in my life. it's just different. how i hope, promos will end soon and there will be choir again.

anyway, exams hasnt even started and i have planned my post exam activities already. i'm just going to fill my life with so many action. like resuming dance, choir, reviving forum, singing, piano, hanging out with my loves.. and so much much much more. not forgetting pw of course.

reformatted my com a few days ago. no more messy desktop, no more irrelevant programs. yay. that's a good start to prevent me from using too much computer.

and i figured out that studying with a bunch of people determined to mug makes you want to mug too. which is good. cus i dont feel like mugging at all if i'm alone.

2008-08-21T20:41:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IRENE CHU!

be honoured i resumed blogging on your birthday. haha.

anyways, haha i think me and ruiwen's birthday present for irene rocks la haha. oh ya. thanks ruiwen for the cake! i abit shock dao when you say want to celebrate from july one. haha. ^^ and the happy birthday sign is like O.O five on one cake. lol

anyways, olympics was super nice. still watching now though. haha super cool. phelps, usain bolt..

OHYA. CONGRATULATIONS TO SINGAPORE FOR WINNING SILVER MEDAL IN WOMEN'S TEAM TABLE TENNIS. china too imba liao.

tml got li jiawei vs zhangyining for semifinals. lol. i think zhangyining will win. and it's like 3 china vs 1 singapore. lol. and it's during break. i hope fish tank will on tv.

2008-08-11T20:47:00.002+08:00

okay, olympics came at the wrong time..

now i'm so engrossed in watching the olympics that i did not feel like studying. i'm like watching a badminton match between LinDan and NgWei and haha of course i support LinDan. but anyway, because there are so many sports that are nice to watch, the olympics are like attracting me so much.

ya and i've been reminded there's 3 tests in 10 days. nice one. and i need to complete a lot of tutorials.. rah..

2008-07-29T20:26:00.003+08:00

i realised my life is rather screwed right now. it's like i'm neither here nor there. i'm trying to convince my dad to let me have to final decision to whether i should withdraw from piano exam. and he says it's my fault that the situation is like that. okay, it is my fault, but i really do not have a lot of time to be sitting at the piano everyday.

nobody really knows how my grades are going to end up. it's abit too early to say, but abit too late to chiong. my chances of taking a h3 next year would be quite slim i suppose.

2008-07-27T22:42:00.001+08:00

somehow i think that i have studied a lot for physics test tomorrow, but i'm still not confident of scoring. it's like i understand but i don't know how to apply which is really a bad thing.

2008-07-24T23:02:00.002+08:00

jetlagging like mad now. morning super tired, now cannot sleep.

anyways, resumed piano today. apparently my exam is two weeks away and everything is like half done. i'm considering withdrawing from the exam if i really cannot make it la. now is like half to rush everything. pw, catch up with school work, revise for promos which is 8 weeks and have tests every week.

and i find myself still slacking like mad every since i came back. haiz.

2008-07-23T20:33:00.003+08:00

World Choir Games 2008

graz is such a lovely place i would love to go back there again. it holds so much memories and fun and scoldings and emotional periods and crazy moments and tears and smiles. the feelings when the results are announced and we got two golds and category champions for one of the category.

i loved our performances. especially for the songs pamugun and bubuy bulan. both were our worst songs, but it turned out to be the best.

i was glad that someone in the audience actually cried when we sang bubuy, and most of us almost cried.. me included. yeeching's solo was fantastic. haha i still remember my voice trembling while singing when i tried to prevent myself from crying.

pamugun was one of a kind. the mood was wow.. the best pamugun ever! we just created magic at that moment. felt so good after performing. it was a good feeling. what's worthed it was the affirmation by other choristers that we were fantastic and the bravos they said, and the immense applause that did not want to stop. some even thought we were from a specialised music school.

awards ceremony was good. i missed how all of us held hands and waited nervously for our name when the results were announced. i missed how all of us want out name to be announced the latest. i missed how all of us jumped up and cried when they started announcing the gold medals. i missed how all of us jumped up and cried when the music played. i missed how we all stood on stage looking at the singapore flag rise and hear the national anthem play. i loved how the person announced that we got an 'incredible score of 93.5' it's my favourite number now. haha. i loved how people congratulated us.

this was a journey that's worth all the hard work, the tears, the smiles, the scoldings, the laughter, everything.

i will miss austria, i will miss graz, i will miss performing with the j2s, i will miss the j2s, i will miss singing the songs..

went to school today. people were like. 'eh? how come you in school?' and all the 'congrats' going around. haha but then, had jetlag so was super tired in the morning cus im supposed to be sleeping at that time in austria. haha

now it's back to school, and alot of catching up to do. promos coming soon and i don't want to screw it up.

rioHC. we make the music.

2008-07-22T21:12:00.001+08:00

back from world choir games! haha.

shall tell the story of the whole trip next time. cus currently very tired. anyways the previous post the categories are the other way round.

^^

2008-07-12T20:42:00.003+08:00

XINGYI WILL BE AWAY IN GRAZ FROM 13 - 22 JULY.

will be there for world choir games.

Category 8: folklore
Category 27: mixed youth choir

so meanwhile, this place will be stagnant. haha..

meanwhile, you can msg me for all you like, but i wont reply cus it's 50 cents per sms. and dont call me or anything. cus it's 5bucks per min. omg..

JIAYOU RIOHC! <3

2008-07-12T16:02:00.002+08:00

the previous was not the second last post after all.. haha

anyways, it's around 6+ hours to being at the airport... yay packed my stuff already. then suddenly my dad said he's going to go out and buy a suitcase.. so if he buys it successfully, i have to repack.. hahaha.

2008-07-11T23:19:00.002+08:00

2nd last post before i leave. haha.

anyways, had the last practice in singapore before the games today. well, somehow we were well prepared, and somehow we were not. i'm just going to go to graz and give my best. this is what we want, and we are going to get it.

but still, there will be some other things at the back of our heads i suppose. the schoolwork we left in singapore... and how we are going to catch up.

it's too late to back out now, but i dont think any of us will regret going for world choir games. cus it's choir, our common passion.

heard ms lim's message from graz. congrats to nanyang. your hard work didn't go to waste. and thanks so much for not giving up. i missed the chance to go choir olympics with nanyang, so now, the juniors will take my place, and probably the rest of my batch's place to compete as nanyang.

i hope what happened to nanyang happens to us too. the good things, at least

2008-07-10T20:35:00.002+08:00

there are some times when people feel that the whole world is against him. that's how i feel now.

2008-07-09T21:36:00.002+08:00

3 more days.

i dont know how i should feel now. there's stress, there's anticipation. it's quite hard to cope with both. what's more, there's not only choir, but still schoolwork, which just keeps coming like nobody's business. maybe it's my time management skills, but still, it's stressful.

got back maths today. i got the grade i want, but somehow i'm disappointed, with myself for losing marks due to careless mistakes, with myself for not studying hard enough.

today's choir was okay, the only thing is we realised that there are some parts where we have been singing wrongly all the time. now, this is not good, considering that it's only three more days. why didn we realise it earlier..

anyway, now i just want to go graz and let riohc shine.

2008-07-07T21:19:00.002+08:00

nychoir is probably on the plane now. five more days i will be on the plane too.

today's choir made me think alot. have we really lost all the feeling and what we have are just beats? i dont know. but i know we will make it! all we have to do is to get back our music, connect and enjoy.

anyway, i dont think i have the mood to do any schoolwork for the next few days. i will just be concentrating on choir, choir and more choir. packing my luggage, revising scores. and i have no idea how im going to catch up with all the work when i come back. haiz. shall just take one step at a time... if really cannot, then gg lor.

it's 10 days away from singapore. i haven't been out there for so long before. dont know how i will be able to cope with it.

2008-07-04T22:22:00.002+08:00

yay okay today's a happy day. minus the fact that i got back my physics mcq..

haha there's a lot of people to thank...

jac unnie, melt, chai, gloria, jinhwee (i'm so happy you remembered! haha how long have we not met..), yokie, zhiying, tianshui, sheena, vanessa for their birthday smses!
yingting, ruiwen, sheena, huzhe (though you just realised it) for their birthday hugs!
jingyu, xinmei, yenngee, evelyn, shiqi, sheena, huijuan for the present!
6B for the birthday song!
junyao for wishing me happy birthday (and you still dont believe that it's my birthday! haha)
tianyu for wishing me happybirthday on facebook!

2008-07-01T22:01:00.002+08:00

today was day one of sabbaticals.

reached school to find out that yanglu, xiaochun, charis, chensi, cher-e, xiwen, hanwen and yihang also in the same sabbats. haha. so cool right.

today was more of jazz.. our instructor's trey. and he's super zai. can do back flip leh! haha. we spent the morning doing jazz stuff. before we learnt the cheoreography in the afternoon! yay i think my group rocks. haha.

now my legs are super weak i even have difficulty climbing the stairs. too long never dance le. haiz.

tomorrow's day two! and trey said another instructor will come. his name is justis. and trey said that it's the justis from Soul. siao. super cool la. haha i'm looking forward to it.

and tomorrow's choir! rioHC j1s jiayou! let's try our best and create a miracle! we can do it de! i realised how much i love this choir..and the altos. we are a really super fun bunch. altos united! haha. thanks denyse, jiamin, adeline, yichan, melissa, yixiao, huiwei, songshuang and yangzi! (:

2008-06-30T22:30:00.002+08:00

omg i'm so tired right now.

how long have i not have such a long day. the whole day is packed la. and i reached home only at 9 plus.

i have no idea how i finished a whole packet of fried rice when i have no appetite to eat. i was so tired that i didn feel like eating.

anyways,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUIWEN!

graz is one and a half weeks away! let's jiayou together okay! haha. and i still owe you your present. each practice is going to get harder, but we will survive!

okay what am i talking. the aftereffects of over exhaustion..

2008-06-27T23:10:00.002+08:00

today is a lovely day!!!!

went out with loves today. met jingyu, xinmei, sheena and yenngee at cine for lunch. ate at pastamania. haha we talked super alot la. just like last time. this is what i really call after-exams happiness.

went partyworld! super long never go le. haha high until cannot. then we went for dinner and talked for super long after dinner.

i missed these times alot la. like last year. I MISS 405!!!! there will never be a class like 405. somehow we just came together just like that. and especially the group of us. we talk about anything under the sun! that's why they are love... hahaha..

let's go out often okay!!! (:

2008-06-25T20:08:00.002+08:00

last paper tomorrow.

i'm quite stunned by how the days pass so fast. it's like suddenly it's the block tests, then suddenly, it's ending. not that i like to sit for block tests. it just means that twenty-four hours is not enough.

anyway, yesterday was killer. gp and physics. if the teachers are nice enough, i will probably pass gp. but it's okay. the mad one was physics. i went through the whole paper almost not knowing how to do anything. and after the paper 6B totally went crazy. lingyong was saying the highest in the class would be an S. haha. if i can get double digit i would be quite happy. the percentage of passing the paper is 0.00000000000000000000000001%.

so the aftermath of the physics paper was not having the mood to study for maths.. i went home to sleep, and woke up and start playing games.

but even so, i think today's maths paper was okay. i hope to get an A, although i have already thrown away 5 to 7 marks. which brings my score down to about 93. deducting all the careless mistakes, and the wrong questions i thought i would be correct, there's a risk i might get B. rah.

something happened during the paper. super funny. i was doing the second page of questions. then i look at the time. never look properly, so i thought time is going to be up. so i chiong all my questions. when i was doing the last question i look at the time again. i realise it's only 10. still got 1 plus more hour to go. -.- win already. i thought it was going to be 11 la.

yay everything is going to end tomorrow, then i can concentrate on choir. which reminds me. 2 more weeks before i take off. so scary. and according to chris, probably they will give back the papers when i'm in graz. nice one. chris say they will bring my papers to the airport when i come back. O.O

okay i'm supposed to study chem now, which i realised, actually i forgot alot of things. OH NO.

2008-06-23T19:21:00.004+08:00

something totally random.

MY CRAZE FOR CHEON SANG JI HEE IS BACK. ahahaha. what wrong time to have a craze returning. i'm supposed to study! tsktsk. anyways. have been rewatching their old video. and OH MY. THEY ARE IMBA. sing so well dance so well. totally my role models can.

한번도, 천상지희! 천.상.지.희!

okay i'm officially mad from blocks. this is what happens when you do excessive studying.

anyways, econs paper today was quite gg. how can i forget the aim of price discrimination? how can i? omg. and i totally dont know how to do the 12 mark question. hahaha.

before the paper ruiwen was like totally going mad. too much mugging. haha. then chris was saying yesterday at 12 am no 6B people were online. imba haha. and he plus lingyong have already planned out what to do after blocks. lan all the way. win liao lor. haha.

what am i doing here blogging? i should be studying. just finished typing out all the physics definitions and formulae. can't believe i did that la. haha. and i still need to somehow mug for gp. and practise physics!

and i think anybody who comes in to my room now and see its state will think i'm fighting in a war. hahaha.

three more days! four more subjects! and then GRAZ here i come! hahahaha.

2008-06-22T14:42:00.002+08:00

i have totally no motivation to study, though block tests starts tomorrow and my econs is totally cmi. somehow, i wanted choir, so that i can get my mind off from studying for a few hours. these few days are just cooping up in my room and study with the radio on. to add on, random headaches at random times of the day when i try to concentrate on studying.

what else. worrying over project work that does not seem to progress how i wanted it to. no interview, no surveys, no mini trial, no information at all. what a lousy tanker i am.

i was browsing through my previous blogs, and i was wondering, should i go back to livejournal, or even diaryland? there are so many of my memories inside. maybe i should not care about this trivial stuff. right now, i have other things to worry about.

2008-06-17T19:48:00.002+08:00

stress-ed

actually, i'm more than stress-ed

it's already the last week of the holidays and i have not done a lot of stuff. somehow i think i just wasted the whole of my holidays doing useless things.

suddenly there are so many things coming up. choir, block test, piano, pw. i've not finished studying for block test, graz is in less than a month's time, piano? totally gg. and now everything is just pressing me like that.

my piano teacher told me to dao studying and practise piano. like i really can. i can't even finish revising econs and it's the first paper. and by rights, i have not even started on physics. well done.

yesterday's choir made me think alot. did we really kind of lose our fighting spirit? and what exactly is the thing that's stopping us from singing well? i thought it would not be the block tests. but then, it probably is. especially when it's one week left. what would happen if i screw up block tests? i cannot imagine it.

another thing. pw. i have no idea how to finish it. i'm kind of left alone to tank the whole thing and nothing is going right. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.

at the rate this things are going, i'm seriously going to break down. SERIOUSLY.

i don't want to finish my block tests regretting what i had done, but i think, i will.

2008-06-09T20:48:00.002+08:00

OKAY I NEED TO BLOG.. haha

Saturday
had our first HUG gathering. haha. thank goodness melt and evelyn were that if not i didn't know how sian i will get. this always happens to first generation fans i suppose. haha. our craze like died down so throughout we were talking about other artistes...
and i was so amused! by those who were squealing over tvxq. haha. but thanks shiqi for donating her house for the gathering! (:
and melt drove me home! yay i get to sit in her car! haha. oh ya. i met.. adeline. win already lor. i never knew she would go. 不早说！

Sunday
THE BIG GROOVE!
omg. it's totally imba. all the polys, unis, and the overseas crews. super imba! and O Crew danced for like 15 minutes?! how do they ever remember their steps! haha. anyways, thanks ezra for koping seats.. we got to sit in the THIRD ROW... that's so near can! haha.
throughout the performance i was like O.O cus they are just too pro. i dont regret going!

Monday
ALTO OUTING!!
haha we went to watch narnia. SUPER NICE i tell you... after the movie jiamin was like.. EDMUND! EDMUND! haha she fell in love with him. lol. i think susan is super pretty.. why didn i go watch the first narnia movie last time? after that went to take neoprints. haha. omg. the whole incident was super funny. then it was ALTO MERCHANDISE TIME! we got.. SHHH don't tell you hahaha. then we went for dinner, or at least yixiao and yichan went for dinner and me huiwei and adeline sat down and watch them eat. haha. then we talked.. about alot of stuff.. seriously. i love the altos so much. haha
ALTOS 万岁！

and now i need to get back to mugging. maths consult before choir tml! and i haven finish my holiday package yet. OH NO.

2008-06-04T21:47:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOOCHUN!

haha how can i forget! my favourite member in tvxq.

anyway, yay no more fever! means i don't need to keep staying at home anymore.. mugged like two topics of chemistry today. quite effective. haha.

cleared my D drive today. so now my computer runs faster. yayers. and my external hard disk is like almost full. oh man.. haha..

okay i dunno what to say anymore..

i want to buy more albums.. RAH..

2008-06-02T15:21:00.001+08:00

fever not subsiding... ):

and how come whenever i need a lot of sleep and i'm alone at home, the phone always wake up me up with trivial stuff. rah. how am i going to rest like that? ):

2008-06-02T06:37:00.002+08:00

i don't feel well.. i think i'm falling sick. oh wells. who told me to sleep so late the past few days..

mugging officially commences today.. haha.

anyways, did i say i bought two albums the other day? haha. i'm so happy! i bought Jang Ri In's I Will and So Nyuh Shi Dae's Baby Baby! ^^

2008-06-01T21:38:00.002+08:00

CHANGE is over!

such a long period of preparation and practising! at least it's successful, minus the technical problems that happened. anyhows, although it's really very tiring and sometimes stressful, i'm glad i made many good friends.

yesterday the concert ended around ten, reached school around twelve, and left school at one plus. omg. i slept at like two plus. and the whole thing was so tiring... plus i had a lot of things to carry.. rah.

yay we are going to have 庆功宴tomorrow at sakae! haha. it's probably one of the last times i'm going to see the change people.. those from other schools at least.

ok now that everything busy is over, i'm going to concentrate on mugging for tests..

2008-05-24T20:34:00.002+08:00

今天很没心情. 没有理由，就是感到很不开心. 把这心情给带到练习，让大家看到我这样子，对不起.

父母去了马来西亚，家里冷清清的，我最不喜欢. 已经放假了，却不知道为什么会那么不开心. 好烦啊...

我很想离开这地方，抛下全部的烦恼，到另一个根本不会有不开心的地方. 或许，这样我会过得好一些...

2008-05-17T13:10:00.002+08:00

SHAKE!

haha okay yesterday was dance night. and it's super nice! the j2s are super pro. and ms chen! omg her freeze is imba. haha. the bboys are cool la.. their power moves.

good job to eileen, jiahan, shiqi, regina, yenngee, huzhe, yanglu! and jiayou for today!

got back chem lecture test yesterday. and wow i got an A! now my chem grade from S jump to C le. yay! soon i will let it be A!

going to mug super hard for blocks and aim for straight As. haha

looking at the photos zhongwei took, i kind of miss choir concert. and i miss having choir pracs. so, i'm so looking forward to next tuesday! arts fest. yay!

and it's the last week of the school already. so everybody let's jiayou! and soon it will be the holidays and we can do whatever we want! haha but of course need to study la.. :D

2008-05-15T21:58:00.002+08:00

today went to support hwachong girls volleyball team for their finals. the match was super exciting. wenjing is super pro! haha. star setter sia! anyways, halfway through we just koped vj's cheer... super funny la!

we won vj hands down by the way! 3-0! claps claps! cheers! haha. and then we were commenting, vj sub dont know how many times and we only sub once.

yayers hwachong!

got back chem lecture test 2. i got an A! yay omg haha. super shocking. i thought i will like borderline pass or fail or sth. never expect to get so good. haha super happy la.

2008-05-12T20:53:00.002+08:00

after today's debrief i just realised my workload is not getting any lesser. haha. it was a good closure for voices in flight. with ms lim telling us her real intentions. and i really appreciate her for that.

ms ho then said. austria trip is in 2 months' time. THAT'S NOT TOO FAR OFF! it's quite scary actually. having just finished concert and suddenly here comes the news that competition is soon. 2 months is a short time. i still remember 2 months before the concert. we probably were still holding our scores and looking at them. it was then we realised that time is so little.

but then, after concert, we have upcoming arts fest, then study period for blocks plus intensive practices for choir, then blocks, and i want to do well for it. and then.. AUSTRIA.

as ms ho said. we chose to go, so let us put our hearts and mind in it.

okay by rights, i should not be here, cus i haven't done my econs essay, chem tutorial and so much more. physics test on wednesday and i have not started revising.

maybe i should just throw my computer away and concentrate on studying.

and i miss 405. it's never the same in 6B, where there can be the few of us talking about anything under the sun. people do grow up, and there are many things we won't tell certain people about. not like in 405. where we do almost everything together.

2008-05-11T23:48:00.002+08:00

it's over.. is it?

haha okay it's over for now, but there's still a long way to go of course. rehearsal today was scary. but i'm glad we pulled through. concert was not bad. first few songs were okay.. but i think it gradually got better? seeing the gradual lift in ms lim's face.

congrats to acapella. the performance was wonderful.

somehow, it feels quite empty now. i do love the feeling of concerts. and i certainly want to do well in it. next target. graz.

thanks to all who came to watch the concert, both friday and sunday. frankly, it would not have been possible without all of you.

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

yea i'm loving angels. those who went through this with me. those who created music with me.

voices in flight '08~

-end-

2008-05-11T10:07:00.001+08:00

start of day two!

we will do better this time!

voices in flight '08 ~

2008-05-10T01:00:00.002+08:00

day one..

i'm really glad i got to stand on vch stage again. how long have i not been on it? there were several moments, where the music was totally undescribable. i would not say it was extremely good, but still, haven't had that in a long time

we did make blunders, but we will do better on sunday.

met my loved ones today! xinmei, melt, amber, alice, amanda, van and juju! other than xinmei, i have not seen the others for ages! had so much fun talking to them at mos during supper. thanks to you all for coming!

economics test today was not bad, but i don't know why people say they did badly. maybe i'm too overconfident?

saturday will be rest day for me. after fitting i will go home and SLEEP. replenish my energy and prepare for sunday! yay.

2008-05-09T05:27:00.001+08:00

it's today!

voices in flight '08

2008-05-08T20:49:00.002+08:00

it's tomorrow.

the special day is tomorrow.

how am i going to concentrate on economics test tomorrow?

my mind is just going to be on what will happen later.

but.

before that, there are more things to worry about.

pw. final gpp have to be submitted tomorrow and we haven't finalise it yet. great. nobody wants to do it. i dont have the latest draft so i cannot make changes. fine. yay. everybody let's fail pw together. we will be the first group in n years to get a U for pw. nice.

2008-05-07T22:21:00.002+08:00

it's just 2 more days..

voices in flight '08

today actually started off well, until the later part, but i'm glad i endured. no matter how long the time was, we endured it as a choir.

go rioHC! let our voices take flight on that day!

2008-05-04T22:56:00.002+08:00

it's the crucial week. either we make or we break. for that matter, i hope we make. i shall not care about how tired i am this week. just do my best, and collapse after that. i rather it be this way.

scared.
stressed.
worried.

that's how i feel. it's so near, i just want everything to go well.

i just want both nights to pass with our voices in flight.

-

i'm loving angels instead...

-

5days.

2008-05-01T10:08:00.002+08:00

happy labour day!

okay, yesterday's choir was good. i bet everybody enjoyed it. too bad i didn't sing, cause i was having a headache after csm. but still, i was telling jiamin how everybody should have a go sitting on the seats, listening to the choir. it gives you a different feeling altogether. you hear things that you don't hear when you are singing in the choir..

maybe i'm not professional enough, but yesterday, the sound was really nice to me. the first time they sang burung, it was really nice, the whole sound kind of filled up avt.

then it was acapella group's turn. i'm sure everybody liked that. Angels would be the favourite song of every rioHC member now, i think. the acapella group's version was simply amazing. and jerry's super good voice.

8 days to go.

we are picking up...

I sit and wait
Does an angel contemplate my fate
And do they know
The places where we go
When we're grey and old
'Cos I've been told
That salvation lets their wings unfold
So when I'm lying in my bed
Thoughts running through my head
And I feel that love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

When I'm feeling weak
And my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
And I know I'll always be blessed with love
And as the feeling grows
She breathes flesh to my bones
And when love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

And through it all she offers me protection
A lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong
And down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me
I know that life won't break me
When I come to call she won't forsake me
I'm loving angels instead

lyrics to angels. i bet many rioHC members have it one their blogs.. but i still want to put it.. just because the song is so beautiful..

2008-04-29T21:35:00.002+08:00

FREE CONE DAY!

haha the long awaited day.. yay i got my cone! anyway, my chem class test confirm gg. i thought must do minimum 40 questions! omg how stupid i am. rah confirm get negative score le.

anyways, woke up at 4 to study chem! not very effective though. guess who i saw online! clement and chai! omg.. i just woke up and they just finished their gpp.. poor them. so cus i woke up at 4, i was super tired.. ><

10 more days..

it's getting closer and closer. i'm starting to get nervous already.. rioHC 파이팅!

tomorrow's csm! can slack! haha.. but i'm running.. >< so throw face.. rah..

i'm in love with a song! haha it's ANGELS by robbie williams.. first heard it by acapella group. super nice la! haha.. yay!!!

2008-04-24T21:16:00.002+08:00

15 days
37 days

my two main commitments now. choir and dance. quite stressful yes, but i'm definitely not going to regret it.

voices in flight 2008. i'm really looking forward to the day our voices take flight. the effort we put in will not go to waste. i've been through this before, and i will go through this again. better.

change '08. so what if i'm just a backup dancer. it doesn't matter. what matters is, i've danced. no inspiration for choreography now, but i can make it. doing one song is not easy, but i will try.

it's tiring. going home late almost everyday. and i miss alot of people.. melt, amber, alice, ryn, juju, shuting, steph, jac unnie.. how long have i not seen them already. i dont know, all i know is it has been months.

2008-04-20T14:43:00.002+08:00

HAT THAT!

fac outing yesterday. it was kind of fun. 6B had an all girls and all boys table. haha. anyways, zijie and minx was crowned fac prince and princess! with the help of 6B of course.. haha.

dinner yesterday showed the true colours of 6B guys.. haha kiasu-ism. before junshyang and tengseng announce that we can go out and get food, they disappeared already. haha thank goodness they are gentlemen enough to help the girls get food too.

the performances were nice. haha. tengseng on the guitar, junjie on the saxophone, hiroshi's performance! haha. super nice la. and junshyang and tengseng were super funny.

oh ya. did say that the opening performance was imba? eileen totally rocked the stage man! zai until cannot. haha.

anyways, 6B's hat theme was random. okay more of disney. thanks to fong! her wacky hats.. haha. photos will be up soon as soon as i get hold of them. haha.

19 days and counting...

2008-04-16T21:20:00.002+08:00

this path of mine seems to be very rocky, and each step i take needs a lot of effort and courage. i have no idea how long i will take to walk to the end. maybe, i might even meet a dead end and be forced to take another path.

i'm supposed to be able to handle stuff better, now that i'm older, but that does not seem to be the case. in fact, i am more vulnerable now.

23 days and counting..

i'm not going to get demoralised, because i know we can make it. at least, we walk together as a team on this path laid with tons of obstacles. each of us need support, and we will support each other.

but then again, who is going to provide me support on my own path?

2008-04-13T12:30:00.004+08:00

okay.. was to tired to blog yesterday.

yesterday went for choir.. and somehow i just can't focus. felt so bad about it. >.<

had change concert briefing. and now im in a dilemma again. should i participate? i need to sign an agreement, and i'm scared of overcommitment. ah..

anyways, waited in school for moxiang and jiahan. then elson came. after that minx told us to wait for zijie. so in the end we were late for stj. met sophia on the bus! and we all came to a conclusion. never let elson lead the way again. haha

so reached settler's cafe and played taboo.. after that when ruiwen and gaomin came, we changed to this balancing game.. everybody takes turns to take a piece of the platform and if it topples that person loses. haha it's super addictive!!

after that, went to crystal jade for dinner. only juniors. seniors went somewhere else... ate super lots of food. my table order noodles/rice for everyone, then we shared 4x5 xiaolongbao and 4 side dishes. haha. eat until very full...

then the receipt turned out to be...

super long

haha. after dinner, went home.. cus i was kind of tired.

i think my maths gg already. there's no time to study for it. (actually, what am i doing here blogging? whatever..)

2008-04-10T16:52:00.002+08:00

broke down today..

i was just feeling too stressed out.. maybe i was too hard on myself for making too many mistakes, but i just can put it down somehow.. and i needed to keep my grades up..

sorry 6B, if i had scared you today.. sorry..

2008-04-08T22:02:00.002+08:00

haven't been updating for a long time..

anyways, haha got involved in Change '08 as a dancer cum choreographer.. haha another commitment.. but oh well, IT'S DANCE!!! i don't mind..

it's 31 days before vif, and i'm sure we will make it! rioHC will make it! haha..

okay.. i'm not looking forward tomorrow. it's 2.4 day, it's sports heats day, it's physics day! OH MANNNNN. i'm going to be like super tired la. and i'm going to die for 2.4 maybe i should just die after running 2.4 HAHA

and it's someone's day tomorrow. lol..

got back my physics test yesterday! i was so happy can! i got an A!! yay. i was so worried about it.. but now hehe. i'm so proud of myself. next one. MATHEMATICS! i must get an A for it. if not i can go bang wall.. my strongest subject leh! haha..

STJ on saturday! and NJ choir concert on sunday! yay..

2008-04-04T21:43:00.002+08:00

danced today! well, wasn't supposed to be there, but when i stepped into RUA i don't feel like going out.

well, learnt part of the artemis 07 faculty dance. without a partner. haha i wasnt supposed to be there anyway.

after the whole session, went home with shiqi.

i was telling her how i regretted not joining MAD. not that i regretted joining choir, but then, i just feel depressed whenever i see how others are enjoying dancing and i dont have the time and place to dance.

well, next time after jc, if i get into university, i'm going to join dance no matter what. there's a need for me to have a change in environment.

2008-04-02T21:48:00.001+08:00

i was in such a bad mood yesterday.. that i forgot to say something..

CONGRATS TO CHRIS AND ELSON FOR GETTING INTO COUNCIL!

2008-04-01T22:03:00.002+08:00

wth sucker..

dont ever play a prank on me like that anymore. having extra lessons is not something to joke about. do you know how much of my time you have taken away? wth.

if you didn do that, i might have actually got my phone repaired, went for piano, and do so much things. but now everything is not done.

2008-03-31T21:47:00.002+08:00

i wouldn't want to swear, but..

I'M SO DAMN FREAKING PISSED RIGHT NOW.

wth is my life turning into?

my phone spoilt today, and then i reached home and realised that there's extra physics lab session after school tomorrow. like wth! i'm not that free okay!

i got vif stuff to do, scores to memorise, loads of tutorials to complete, pw deadline to meet, phone to repair, etc.

and now you take up my time like that.

did i like make the wrong choice to choose IP in the first place?

seriously, i feel like i'm going to break down anytime soon.. everything is like just dropping down and squashing me flat.

maybe, i dont belong here at all.

2008-03-30T00:01:00.003+08:00

OMG
I
AM
SO
DEAD.

there's like super no time for everything.

econs revision unfinished, score memorising not even started. omg. how am i going to finish everything?

told my mum that i wanted to cancel tuition tomorrow. but she didn't allow! aahh.. the tutor can't help me in economics!

oh man. what to do what to do..

2008-03-23T19:56:00.003+08:00

nothing i say makes sense to you. everything is just wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong. it's so much the case that now i do not know how to talk to you.

maybe, i should just stop talking to you altogether..

2008-03-23T15:05:00.002+08:00

omgness. i'm like seriously committing suicide by taking physics in jc. physics has never been so difficult la. after like a few days of mugging physics i still need to refer so that i can do the questions. at this rate my physics test confirm gg...

well actually, it's kind of confirmed la. i have been doing so much exercises until i cant find anymore to do. and i still haven't grasp dynamics. and looking at the format of the test, the two structured questions definitely will be one on kinematics and one on dynamics. the kinematics should be okay, provided i dont suddenly forget everything. which is what happened to my chem test. mcqs, good luck man.

anyways, went for physics consultation with ruiwen, elson and zijie yesterday. the most beneficial physics session i had in this year. haha. i really learnt alot. didn regret not going for it! after consultation i stayed in school to study physics. and i actually finished the relevant tys questions. all the calculation ones. explaining ones are alien to me. i dont even know how to do them. and NICE tys doesn provide the answers to explanations. only calculation questions.

goodluck for my physics test man. i really want to pass...

2008-03-20T11:53:00.000+08:00

FAC CIP!

anyways, met up with eileen and people for breakfast at kap in the morning. haha sorry elson you had to get suan-ed early in the morning. after we finished breakfast, and wanted to leave, we realised it was like raining quite heavily outside. and people like us (except eileen) didn bring umbrella. but we still managed to get to sch. thanks eileen for the umbrella! i feel so bad that you have to run in the rain instead.

yup, so went down to lengkok bahru to start work! we went to the emperor's house to clean up for him! haha i think we chionged like crazy cus we finished work super early. haha xiangjing had to run errand for the king.. it was all the way at suntec! haha actually, shenton way as to what xj told us in the end. but haha. we had fun! listening to songs from chris's phone. thanks chris!

after that went for lunch. then we were saying, if you take a photo of people, and put the camera on auto flash, there would be no flash. but when jiahan comes in.. there's flash! haha. meaning that jiahan is to dark.. hahaha. super funny can!

anyways, after cip, went to marina square. then eight of us went bowling, and some went esplanade to indulge in sinful treats, as what eileen refers to.. (it's haagen daaz actually. haha). i was a bit off form today, my score was like way below 100.. but i got a strike once! haha. ruiwen was like throwing the balls la. haha. we were saying that if she continue to play like that, the lane will crack. haha. and elson is so super slow...

haha. happy day today!
studying starts tomorrow...

2008-03-14T21:40:00.002+08:00

batch outing today! met at bishan, just to find that quite a lot of people not coming. altos are a bunch of enthu people! 7 out of 10 went haha. and those who did not come had reasons.

anyways, took bus to shi en's house. then someone told me he has a dog. omg la. i'm scared of dogs you know. but thank goodness the dog is super quiet. just that she keeps wanting to eat food.

so we arrived at shi en's house and started to K! haha. super pro. his house got K system. cool! ate kimbap! yayers to shilbe and her mother! haha. haven't eaten kimbap in a long time. anyways, some went to play risk after that, and some played wii. some remained to K. then a group of us watched ratatouille! haha the front part only. i had to go at 1, cus my theory exam's tomorrow! and i need last minute revision badly.

guess what, i reached home and realised i have a fever. must be because i slept too late last night. it always happens. rah. i always for sick before some important event. but i feel better now. just need to take some medicine before i sleep and i'll be alright.

i'm like trying to upload photos now, but i think there's some problem with webshots. it keeps having error uploading. rah. i guess i will just post it tomorrow.

anyways. hope i can pass tomorrow's exam. people! wish me luck!

-

it came so sudden, i don't know what to say, and how to respond.
i just need time..

2008-03-13T20:53:00.002+08:00

Step Up 2 is imba!

oh man. throughout the whole movies i was like wowing here and there. the dances were so pro. even the girls can breakdance, like do the stunts and stuff.. cool. watching all those dances made me want to dance even more. rah. i cant go o sch this week.. :(

i love the soundtrack! haha especially the song way i are! it holds a special significance. i miss RedAlert. i miss magdalene. and i still remember the date was 2nd sept. me, regina, yingting, gloria, wingyan.

2008-03-12T22:18:00.002+08:00

first performance as a batch.

though it was not up to standard, but still.. i guessed i kind of enjoyed it. whatever it is, we go through the process as a batch. because that's what a batch does.

i enjoyed singing during banner painting, although it was only a few hours. the banner is done. it's pretty, according to those who went today. anyways, i felt so bad when i arrived late. if i had not been forgetful, i wont be late at all.

yay step up 2 tomorrow! i cant wait. regina said to stay until after credits. haha.

2008-03-10T22:21:00.000+08:00

站在人生的十字路口
我不知何去何從
那一刻，我恍然大悟
人生的真諦就在于抉擇

-黃城

昨天去看了黃城. 三部劇，三種不同的感覺. 《晚安. 媽媽》，《冥》，《完美升級》. 對我來說，《冥》是我最喜歡的. 有可怕的成分，同時讓我想，人為何會做虧心事？我知道自己一定做過，讓我后來很慚愧.

人生，就一定要做抉擇嗎？在人生的道路上，就是有很多很多的十字路口吧. 每走一段，就要做出選擇. 而這選擇，將畫下未來的道路. 這些抉擇，通常沒什么對或錯. 只不過，有點可怕. 萬一，選了一個不理想的，未來就一片黑暗. 但不管怎樣，選擇了就要面對. 至少，要試著去面對.

不知道將來會怎樣，只能走一步，算一步.

我選擇平凡，因為平凡是種幸福
我選擇簡單，因為簡單是中美

-黃城

2008-03-09T10:53:00.002+08:00

finally went to O Sch after two weeks! yay! it's so nice to go there again! nowadays, there's very few people so at least it's more spacious. haha. regina and eileen came after MAD orientation. haha they finally went after n weeks of not going.

anyways. watched L yesterday! hmm. it's not bad.. but not as good as death note 1 and 2. but.. L is so cool! haha.

i'm looking forward to watch step up 2! even daniel says it's super nice. if dance instructors say it is good, then it must be good! haha. yay! thursday thursday!

theory exams's in one week's time.. rah.. need to mug theory. .

2008-03-08T10:40:00.002+08:00

start of holidays!

it's going to be a time for me to really sit down and study and understand all those i never did in the first term. i will make sure i get everything clear. no more slacking.. and hopefully no more failing of tests. it's very demoralising i know, especially to know that i'm one of the lowest for tests.

anyways, A level results out yesterday. many were kind of scared since it's the first IP batch. but hey! hwachong had superb results. i was in the canteen with 6B when we heard the announcement. wow. everything was like super good. thank goodness.

so.. my aim is now.. max my 12 AUs and.. aim for As for everything!

choir yesterday. it wasn't very good, but i'm sure we tried hard. ok the important event was batch dinner! after choir, we went bukit timah food centre. haha a group of us self-ostracised. haha no la. is because there are not enough seats so we went somewhere else to find seats. had lots of fun.. talking and playing games like catch the mouse and stuff. well, left early because i was kind of tired.. haha. i'm looking forward to batch outing yo!

2008-03-06T21:44:00.002+08:00

okay. haven't blogged since sunday. just didn't have the mood to do it.

anyways, got back my chemistry test. kind of expected i would fail. i just cant think fast enough for stoichiometry. and there are quite alot of careless mistakes. i would have gotten a lot more marks if they weren't made. anyways. it's below class average. our class average is like high.

so during the march holidays, im going to re-study all the subjects. physics, chemistry, maths, econs. everything. and make sure i understand everything.

and yesterday, i was assigned to take charge of choir. didn't think i did a good job, but thanks di jie for the encouragement. okay, maybe i cant take choir in terms of music, but admin? probably yes? i don't know. at least there's a chance for me to show what i have, but i think i didn't make good use of it.

theory exam's in around one week's time. i really hope i can pass..

2008-03-02T15:34:00.002+08:00

i'm over it. totally over it. decided to accept my fate. i don't want to make it seem that i'm blaming others. cus i'm not. it's just that sometimes i don't understand.

anyways.. YAYERS for ruiwen! she found her bag. though money cards and gc gone, those are all replaceable quite easily. at least she doesn't need to redo her tutorials! and GOODLUCK to her for piano exam on tuesday! i'm sure she can pass.. :D

decided to take my practical exam this year. means one more commitment. i somehow have to find time to practise. it's like my theory exam which will be in a few weeks time. and i seriously want to pass it. like just get it over and done with.

holidays are coming. though it's one week, but enough time for me to catch up on my work so that i can understand everything. and there are so many movies i want to watch..

2008-02-27T22:56:00.003+08:00

was talking to my piano teacher yesterday about portfolios and stuff. how hard is it to build up a good portfolio? Very hard. especially if you do not have many opportunities to start with.

i'm not complaining, but sometimes i feel that, schs say they provide many opportunities for certain things. but the problem is that the target group they provide it for is very small.

for example. they ask people to join the organising team of a certain event. and they will say it's a good experience to hone your leadership skills. but the thing is. the people they choose had been leaders before. and those who did not have an opportunity to lead will never get a chance to lead. it's really a vicious cycle. those who have had many opportunities will continue to get more opportunities. and those who missed an opportunity will probably never get an opportunity ever again no matter how hard they try.

so that means people who are able to have a good portfolio will have an excellent one. and people who arent able to build up a good portfolio, might not even have a portfolio that is worth looking through..

maybe i should give up the chance of trying to lead and be a follower forever...

life is full of vicious cycles..

2008-02-27T21:36:00.002+08:00

everything is unexpected.

and everything is just in a vicious cycle of its own.

twisted my ankle when i was going down the stairs. i just suddenly slipped and fell. no more dance until my ankle recovers. what a sad life. i missed o sch last week. and i have to miss it again this week. everything always happens when i have planned everything out.

i should have been more careful. but how would i have known that it would happen? it's not my fault that it happened, but how can you scold me even when i injured myself? it's not what i wanted. you rushed me, and that was what happened. now you blame me for injuring myself. nice one.

ILP presentation tomorrow. i'm not confident at all. my presentation skills are not good. sorry to my group members if i dragged you down. it always happens. no matter what, i will try my best.

2008-02-26T20:24:00.002+08:00

argh.

the new timetable sucks. now mondays are not nice anymore. i end at 330! omg.. so late. and only 30 minutes break before choir! oh man. how to survive.

pw starting. means i have more work to do. and i don't know whether i should take piano prac exam or not. i always can't decide. haiz.

anyways. mr lee told 6b today that our class the max no. of correct questions for mcq is 7. haha wow. definitely not me. cus i only did five. i depend all on my structured now! RAH.

thursday's OP. no movie again. haiz. it's my only free time and they have to take it away. right smack in the middle of afternoon somemore. seriously, i don't mind having it on saturday. oh wells.

2008-02-25T22:03:00.002+08:00

POP!

haha it was so fun.

had chemistry test in the morning. and guess what. first time in my life i cant finish a chemistry paper. zomg. and i left 10 marks blank! worst thing that happened to me today. haiz. whatever

anyways, orientation games were fun! haha. and 6B met our new classmate, Hiroshi.

ok fast forward to POP! had 2007 fac dance showcase! haha i seriously love apollo's one. it's nice. artemis not bad too! then it was fac dance competition! i gave my all.. haha cus it's dance! was super high la. by the time the dance finish, my voice was hoarse liao. but it's super fun! haha artemisians dancing together.. I LOVE THE FAC DANCE CAN! it's nice..

and after that was songs and mass dance!

realised it was the last time the 34th students' council are leading us in both events. haiz. they are a good bunch of councillors..

yay! orientation was fun! although it ended today. but still.. i will never forget.. og and ct.. haha.. they are a great bunch of people..

anyways today was the first day of wearing hc uniform. i'm happy to say that i look normal. haha. and no more wearing of ny uniform. i kinda miss it actually.. haha.. one day i will wear it again.. HAHA

thanks xianyou for the tags! and yes dance totally rocks my life! i can't imagine having to live with 1hour of dance a week. haha.